Emotionally Drained

Dazed and confused
Amazed at the stuff I've allowed you to put me through
Walking a thin line
Trying to survive
Just trying to see this through
Is this my future
Is this my fate
Is this my last and final mate
Before I settle I need some answers
Love it pain
But I want an easier battle
My mind is rattled
And you're still the same
Why am I asking questions
When you're the one to blame for my mind going insane
Broken promises
Stolen dreams
Holding on to hope but my pride is constantly snatched away from me
Robbed of my emotional being
Seeing, hearing, watching my soul collapse
Perhaps, this love this just isn’t for me
Or maybe I’m too vulnerable
I’m lost
Confused
Dazed
And emotionally drained

Taking back the streets

I tried to deliver a message
With no rage, anger, or lost of temper
But I’m tired of being ignored
If we don’t restore our youth
Their future will be destroyed
I refuse to sit back and watch them waste away
I demand we get involved right now today
Let your voice be heard
Scream it to the top of your lungs
The ones that we bury
Are someone sons, daughters, nieces, nephews, grand kids, cousins, and friends
But we continue to live life after like theirs never began
When does it stop?
Where does the tragedy end?
I can’t help but worry about the future of these kids
The future of my kin
What about my nieces and nephews
Are they suppose to stay in
To keep them from violence they’re not involved in
Hell no, we’re taking the streets back
And I’m not talking about a race war
Cause this isn’t about being black
This is about being human and lives being snatched away
What good is a future, if our youth is being washed away?
Murder murder, kill kill is what seems to appeal
We’re letting murderers run our streets
While we’re footing the bill
Who’s going to stand and say no more?
My people come on
I’m not bury any of my youth no more
Let’s give them a life they can enjoy….

The streets

what's going on with my people
Either they're selling the drugs or they're one with needle
Filling up jails and keeping funeral homes with good sales
Its hard to tell that we had people who fought for our rights
Gave their life so we can have a chance at a good life
But is it that we're so used to being down, that’s where most choose to stay
Everything negative seem to work for them day by day
What about our youth, is it to late to save?
They're killing them off or training them to be the killers
They're not knowing better because the street can bring them some nice figures
Buy them some nice rims
Going to school rocking the latest timbs
Not caring about what the teacher have to say
They'll continue to make their money the fast way
I'm tired of turning on the news seeing our kids waste away
hurting my feelingsBecause it was someone so innocent
A future doctor, lawyer, or politician
Who knew their future would end in an instant
We need to put our ears to the streets
Stop and listen
They're crying out for help
But who's going to pay attention?
Who's going to save our kids
we can't depend on anyone else when we're not willing lending a helping hand
Wait (weight) broke the bridge down and many people drowned
same scenario
just a different background
I’m tired of crying
Tired of losing our young men and women to senseless violence
Asking the question why
But we’re only hearing “I guess they were at the wrong place at the wrong time”
Well, where’s the right place to be?
I’m just not getting it
Someone please inform me
Tell me where it’s safe to be
Because I’m tired of our kids going down the wrong street
I’m tired of seeing our younger generation suffer because they’re hanging with the wrong crowd
it’s a damn shame that most of our role models are gang bangers and drug dealers now
I can’t help but to fear for my life
I don’t want to die before I have much success in life
I don’t want to die before I become someone’s wife
I don’t want to die before I give a child life
Think about it…….
The streets that we walk on are the same ones a body’s being chalked on

sexuality tripping

WOW, people that pressed over same sex marriage
They don’t rave that much about people and their stealing
People and their killings
Child molesting or racial dealings
But you’re protesting, stopping and trying to ruining the lives of human beings
Being gay is not a choice
And being straight can’t be forced
Love is love regardless of the parties involved
Just because you complain doesn’t mean the homosexual percentage would fall
Just because you tell us we can’t get married doesn’t mean homosexuality will dissolve
So the point you’re trying to prove is pointless to us
I’m happy in my skin, trust
Trust and believe we embrace the derogatory things you say
Dyke and fag to us is like “nigga” in the black community
Meant to hurt us, degrade us, and make us feel like we’re less than others
Throw the bible at us
Tell us we’re going hell
Lock us up in cell
Give us an intervention
Tell us that this isn’t the right thing to do
But you have to be crazy if you think we’re going to listen to you
This is my life so what is it to you
Life is way to short to be worrying about what other people do
Who I lay with at night shouldn't have any affect on you
But obviously it do
Your selfishness
Your hate
Doesn’t affect me or who I date
Your closed mine is fine with me
You’re the one upset not me
You’re mad because my better half is a she?
You’re mad because I love her and she loves me?
You’re mad because it’s another woman that completes me?
But just because you’re mad doesn’t justify you judging me

Drifting away

I open my eyes you're 3 steps away,
I take a step forward and you back further away
I run towards you and you just fade away
Where are you going?
Here on earth is where I thought you'd stay
I ask god everyday
Why did he take my granny away
I know I can't question him
But someone needs to explain
Why you’re drifting away
I don’t want you to go
Just come back to me
Please god, I beg of you
To give my granny back to me
With all the tears that I cry
With all the pain that lives inside
I need someone that understand me
I need my granny, for she was the light of me
Now I’m weak
Can barely think
Thinking about how things could be
I just wanna be close to her
I just wanna feel her touch
I just want you to understand
That I love her so much
I’ll do anything
Just to get a moment with her
My soul hurts so badly with every thought I have of her
I know that I can only dream of this
So that’s what I’ll do
I hope the day we meet again
You’ll be proud of me too
I love, miss, and honor you
And I know u in a better place
So go on granny take your rest
Just save me a space for when I come home to lay

R.I.P Irene Norwood

life's battle

Life's battle is something we have to deal with
We can't ignore it, acknowledge it
Let it be known that we know our own struggles
Life's battle is something everyone goes through
You may be going through more than someone else
But remember there are those that go through more than you
We as humans don't know our own strength
If we couldn't defeat the obstacles of life they wouldn't be put in our way
Don't step over your problems and expect them to go away
Face them, then embrace them
Let them know you have the power to beat them
Instead of beating yourself down
Drinking and drug use in only temporary relief
Run towards your problem don't run from them
Just learn from them
You're put on this earth for a reason and to serve a purpose
Life's purpose isn't for everything to be perfect
If it was there will be no purpose
We have to go through battles to know the true meaning of life
If we had no worries there would be forever lasting life
We have to lose a life to gain a life
If we don't lose a life we can't gain a life
This means basically there wouldn't be a life to live
Jesus gave his life for us
We have to give our life for someone else
So live your life to the fullest
Live it to the best of your ability
Don't let your problems win
Because in the end its still you that have top deal with those problems over and over again!

Unfinished

Pain suppresses me
Unwillingly to let my heart breathe
No ability to protect me as my heart bleeds internally
Struggling with feelings I'm wondering how I endured
Trying to concur the concept of love but I keep falling through a trap door
Another failure as I'm unsuccessful with love once more
Pain erupting and shooting through my heart like lava out of a volcano
Burning my soul
Disturbing my stability
Possibly affecting me mentally
Ripping me emotionally
If love takes a toll on you like this
Why is it even in existence?
Is it that we claim love without knowing the right definition
Falling for someone who isn’t even suppose to be a love interest
Damn, now we’re left with hurt feelings
No closure to heal them
Stressed and depressed trying to deal with them
If it wasn’t for this thing called love we wouldn’t be in this situation
Where we saying to another human “we hate them”
Wish we could go back erase and never date them
But in all reality we should really thank them
Now we know the consequences of what happens if we leave our hearts open

Touches

Simply awaiting your validation for some sexual fornication
Ready to tempt your temptation
Let me kiss all the places
That'll have your legs shaking, heart racing, back aching
I want to mark your body with tattoos of my kisses
Baby I'm your genie ready to grant all your wishes
Close your eyes first I want to take you to a special place
Its me and you there, for everything else in your memory right now is erased
Your body is my target place
I want to make sure every ounce of it is safe
I'm not god but I can take you to that higher place
Have you on cloud nine like the temptation say
You got me going in circles, yeah let that Luther play
The sounds of your moans is like music to my ears
Every encounter with your body reduce all my fears
Subliminal messages from your heart to mine
Indirectly stating you're all mine
I want to get you so excite that when your body erupt with pleasure, you'll have a heavenly sighting
That'll make tears fall from your eyes
Its not only your body I want to make love to your mind
That way when I cross your mind
You'll get that tingle in your spine
That'll remind you of this moment in time

For you

interesting conversations with intimate speculations
anticipating our transformation into deeper relations
no love deprivation as we enter into a new journey of more spiritual commitment
our attraction goes way beyond physical appearance,
our minds, bodies, and souls connect like its our obligation
I'm insinuating that you're my destination
finally exclusive with so much definition
transitioned my feeling into yours with no regret
and you return the favor with no neglect
either this love is real or god's putting us through a test
whatever the case may be
your presence is like a breath a fresh air I can't wait to breath
now I'm trapped in by the texture of your heart being so warm to me
images of us together drives me so insane that I wish my mind was a camera so I can take a picture and have it framed
your personality enlightens me
your voice excites me
your determination enthuse me
your generosity soothes me
you're beautiful
wonderful
with a soul of gold
with qualities like that my heart was sold
Whenever
Where ever
Whatever you desire
I'm going to give it to you
I'll be your number one supplier
I'm your realier
And secrectly you're my ghost writer
Everyline I spit
You inspire
You're the one I admire
The one who puts a flame to my fire
The one who takes me higher
My lover, my friend, and my future

Let me love you

Let me love you
And embrace how you came become one from two
Loving you is all I do
I'm physically, mentally, and emotionally in love with you
Everything I do I do it for you
Its the little things about you that keeps me smiling
Just thinking about you has my heart pounding
Anxiously wanting you here with me right now
I'm counting the second, minutes and hours you're not around
Just the mere mention of your name turns my day around
Heaven must've sent your love to me
You're an angel now spread your wings
And shower me with drips of love
Tell me no one will intervene with this thing we call love
Put your all into me
I put my all into you
You and me become we
You're my star shinning in the sky
You're my light making the day bright
You're my life I feed off to live
Its for you anything I'm willing to give
Loving you this hard is something I never thought I'll do
But its gotten to the point where I'm not only wanting but needing you
Together forever is how I see me and you
With a bond so strong that nothing but death can keep me from you
Til death do us part
I'm willing to say I do and take on the responsibility of becoming the other half of you
Only to you my love is true

Thinking...

I been doing some thinking
Ones comprehension is really peaking
Seeking love in all the wrong places
Secret love with all the wrong faces
Distant love with no return penetration
Clouded emotions with so much termination
Determination turned into bitter sensation
With love I've hit my final destination
Compromising with myself to love me more
Balance it on a scale and get an even score
Hit in the heart again
Now I'm losing once more
Trying to gain mobility
I know there's a possibility
For me to get a victory
Success with love needs to be branded on me
So passionate about becoming a better me
But does becoming a better me means get rid of he?
Does becoming a better me means get rid of she?
Damn, I wish there was somebody to answer me
Need a solution before wrong love take over me
GOT IT
I'll let u out of my heart, lock it, and swallow the key

Heart 2 Heart

Day by day I pray for better-ness
Most of the time it ends with bitter-ness
Short days, long nights
Crying tears and struggling to fight
Loneliness in my heart
With stress taking over my brain
My pain isn’t physically done
But mentally I’m insane
Emotionally I’m a wrack
Just look at my life it’s a mess
Why should I have to live this way?
Why should I have to take this internal pain?
But at the same time I feel why should I give up?
I got so much to accomplish
So many goals to meet
Smiling everyday but there’s really no happiness in me
Fake it until I make it is enough motivation for me
Seeing is believing and a lot of people have really showed their demons
Hateful word play from people who supposedly care about me
Negative feedback from the ones who supposedly love me
Dealing with this is hard to do
Can’t ignore but I have a special storage in my brain for it
Left my heart open and the results was “it’s destroyed”
Picking up the pieces hoping to “restore” it
Mold it back into one piece
Wrap it up in my arms and just hold onto to me