Life pt 2

Life is just so strange
you try to advance but you're always pulled the other way
they say it'll get better
but I'm tired of living through the storm and this whether
Jesus is on the mainline but it's busy on my end
constantly hearing I'm living a life full of sin
but wait
didn't Jesus die on the cross for our sins
then they wonder why I stay drinking gin
negative remarks and mostly from my next of kin
drunken thoughts and suicidal notes
I'm telling you
this life shit just isn't a joke
and when I go off
people say I'm doing the most
but this is my life please let me be the host
why are you in my life serving
hoping I'll let you co-host
I came in this world alone
this is a one woman show
please don't take offense
I'm just stating the obvious
if you worry more about yourself
you wouldn't take this as a diss
better yet
take this as a dish
for when you're at my house trying to serve up your favorite dish
you know the drama, gossip and other bullshit
please don't think I'm being a bitch
I'm just confronting some of your childish-ness
Now next time you want to know something about me, ask me
because like I keep saying
no one knows Patrice better than me

Lost: Part 1

I’ve cried my last tear
I’m done trying to fix it
What we once had is left in the distant
Stuck in the past
Too lost to find the future
Why keep trying
Why sacrifice my heart
Why waste my time
Why work on something that is constantly hitting a flat line
You aren’t appreciative of it anyway
If you were my heart wouldn’t bleed with so much pain
Can’t stop the bleeding
Because you’re constantly picking and poking at the cut
It’s time to give up
Time to let go
I love you so much
But I love me much more
My feelings are so tore
I just don’t know what to do
Either I can be miserable with you
Or lost without you
This love thing
Is just an ongoing battle
I refuse to be defeated
But my body is getting weak
And I still don’t know what to do
I guess I’ll find out when I write a part 2